My 30′s

I deem today worthy of a post due to the fact it is my 34th birthday!  It seems like time has just flown by, but at times I think that it has been a blessing for my life.  For me… my 20′s were hard.  I had to do a lot of growing and figuring out life that I am hoping to teach my children how to do before they hit their 20′s.

It was also hard because I had little ones at home, while I was going through some very needed personal growth. Now that isn’t to say I am done, I think we always need to work on ourselves.  Become better people to glorify our God who has created us, and wants the best for us.  That is only achieved if you are always looking for ways to improve, as a person, as a husband or wife, as a parent, as a teacher, as a friend… the list could go on and on.

Anyway… I truly love my 30′s.  I am so comfortable with who I am, I now know what I like and don’t like, becoming molded into the person I was meant to be.  It is like a big weight is lifted off my shoulders, like a sigh of relief knowing I am who I am, and it isn’t all that bad.  And the outside world can take it or leave it, that is fine by me.

I guess I am talking mostly about my personality and my character.  It is almost as if I contradicted myself… I need constant personal growth, but I am who I am… too funny!

It is the person I am inside…really weird to describe myself but I will give it a try.  I am kind, don’t like to be mean and don’t like people being mean or rude.  I am thoughtful…I have a heart for others and what they are going through or what they have been through, I do truly care.

I love to laugh, I love hearing my family at the dinner table genuinely laugh together, because the baby is doing something SO cute.  I love making people laugh, I love being made to laugh.  I love having a sense of humor about life… if you can’t find a sense of humor about hard times of the past, even if it is yesterday then it is just plain depressing!

I love God’s creation, His work on this earth is truly amazing.  Maybe that is why I love so much to photograph it all.  The colors just in the sky alone, is NOT by accident.  My kids and all their expressions and feelings of emotion through their body language.  I wish I could take constant still shots of what God has created in them…it is so lovely.

I really do think Hawaii is my heaven.  I love the beach, and living in tank tops and flip flops…my dream.  I love sunsets, rainy days, and watching the wind blow through the trees.  Busy birds in the sky and clouds floating by.

The smell of flowers coming through the window of my car on a hot day makes me smile.  The beautiful blooming trees and all the different colors of the leaves come spring time reminds me of how thankful I am for winter to be over… oh and that reminds me of all the baby ducklings out in the Spring time… the list could go on and on.

I do not like kids who do not have respect for others, whether it be their peers or adults.  I have no patience for parents who ignore their children and their behavior.  I do not like unthoughtful people, who are rude and obnoxious just for the sake of being selfish. I also could do completely with out confrontation, especially with someone who is right no matter what the argument.

Not a fan of housework, like to do laundry when I have time (which is never), love to feel strong cuz I just worked out, love my husbands laugh, love to be creative… writing, singing and playing guitar, painting, designing and sewing quilts, coloring, building with wood, the list can probably go on and on once again.

I love plants, buying new ones, growing babies, making our windows look like tropical rain forests.  How they have so much different detail depending on what kind they are.  I like how my husband looks at them and tells me how great they look even when he really doesn’t care one way or the other.

I just want to live simply, don’t want so much material as I do quality of life… where I have learned to be a content wife, mother, and most importantly child of God.  Watching my last little boy grow, I realize how much time flew by and I feel like I missed just enjoying my older ones as tots.  That is one of those ‘life lessons’.

So to be sad would be a waist of precious time that God has given us to learn and grow, and to appreciate the NOW.  So my hearts desire is to not forget that.  To soak up the rest of these 30′s as gifts of priceless time with my kids to love and nurture them so they can go have better 20′s and even better30′s than myself.

And lastly… to live in paradise, (Hawaii that is)…aahhh…. with my guitar… oh and my husband… and my friends and family… in our little beach cottage, with a music/painting/sewing/ photography room… and hibiscus (hawaiin flower) growing every where… oh ya, one more thing… and no big nasty bugs, ANYWHERE!