Time Is Approaching

I feel the time is growing near where music and I will come full circle!  It is so exciting and nerve racking all at the same time!

The Lord has opened up doors for me to sing more at my church.  He has allowed me to sing more by myself just to get rid of the nerves and to gain some confidence.  I am able to pour out my heart in song for Him.

That  is my hearts desire!  To just sing a song the way it comes out is very freeing and full-filling in a manner of… believing that the Lord is using me for that purpose.  The purpose being to worship Him at my potential for others, so they can worship Him too!

I also have been meeting with my awesome friend who plays the violin.  We have been taking songs we like and working them out in a new creative way.

Also just this week another one of my good friends from church who I use to sing with on the women’s ministry worship team is now helping me with my voice and guitar skills for growth.

I feel like I am in a place where I need help… more outside influence to grow me as a musician, and the Lord has brought it together, once more.

He is so faithful!!!  If you just let Him take the wheel!  In His perfect timing it all comes together… Such a blessing!

Here is an awesome personal example that confirms that waiting on the Lord is what he wants from us…

I have been wanting to do more at Church Worship for awhile, meaning I wanted some solos and more responsibility for growth.  To sing for our God with out nerves and concern of how it should sound, or what I sound like.  I wanted to work through all of it, so I could grow as a singer, and a worship leader.

I have found that those qualities come from experience.  We are all made of flesh which can overcome what we know to be true from the bible.  So I realized through all of my experience so far that I just need to be in circumstance that make me uncomfortable more, and that will grow me… that is the experience I need!

Anyway I shared how I was feeling with my husband months ago, and I really wanted to say something to the worship leader ( my authority) about it, but never found the right time.  I just didn’t feel prompted too, so I just left it alone.

About a month ago, my Worship Leader/Pastor decided that once a month he wanted to start doing a more intimate worship setting where it would be just four people doing worship instead of a whole band full of people.

So he has made it  just two singers, two guitars, and percussion.  I am the second singer and it is pretty neat to do, and it is more responsibility for me.

So I have more opportunity for solos and help carry the songs in a more passionate way instead of technical way… if that makes sense.

On Sundays the worship team comes in 2 hours early to practice the 5 songs for an hour and a half before church for the 2 services that day.  So a few Sundays ago, our Worship Leader lost his voice.  He could not sing.

So myself and another singer had to carry worship that day.  It was a big shock, and a lot of pressure to carry the songs… instead of just being an addition to the songs.  It was also awesome.

I just continued to ask the Lord to use me, to just sing through me for the congregation.  He carried me through and I was able to just worship passionately for Him.  I did not have to worry about blending with my worship leader, or singing to loud or too soft, I was just able to sing from my heart… it was divine!

So after first service, my worship leader said to me all the things that I have been wanting to say to him.  All the things I was hoping for in the church worship setting, came from the Lord out of his mouth.  It was so cool, so obvious to be from our Almighty and at His time!

So in God’s perfect timing, everything just comes together!

I have another story about Gods perfect timing… about a different kind of worship where he in His own time has allowed me again to be apart of something awesome!  But another day.